So Long My Baby..

  I don't know what to say..
It's really a great lost..
I've lost my sweet Bibi due to the infection of her womb.. She left me with 4 cute puppies and I cried everytime I see them squaked, need a warm loving hand to cuddle.. and I know, nothing can replace their mom.. in my heart..

But again, I think its just Bibi's destiny.. for 2 nights, I've tried to find doctor for her, but my vet was out of town, and the next day, his car broke down so he can't go to the clinic.. I carried her around, in my lap, and she gave me a "no quit" look on her face.. she struggled for her sickness.. she as calm as always.. 

Her body still warm, her breath still warm, she loved when I hug her so tight that night.. and I said to her.. "if you can't stand anymore, than you may go,sweety.. I will let you go to heaven.. with all my heart and soul.." (eventhough I definitely not ready to lose her..)
I've secheduled her to get operation the next morning at 9, because of her infection, then my vet said the leaving placenta can infectious to her body and it may intoxicate her.. so they had to do the operation, cleaning the infectious womb and remove it..

So.. on a lovely Saturday morning, at 6 am, 27 January 2006, Bibi close her eyes forever, and leaving me in a deep grieve.. until now, it still makes me sad to see her puppies.. milking them.. cuddling.. 

Bye my sweet Bibi.. now you can be free.. you don't have to jump the fences if you want to be free like you used to do.. I know God loves you more than I love you.. and you love me more than you love yourself.. take care...  
Thanks to wenni, xenia, citra and ganto for their condolences.. it makes me feel better indeed..

08.02.07
Dear Bibi,
nothing in this world can replace you in me..
I miss you so so so so very bad..
Love,
Mommy